What Happened?

You think you have it all worked out.  You are happy.  You are enjoying your Christian life; then, the thief takes the seed.  One week I'm serving at the SWEETEST church that I have ever known, the next week I'm OVERLY FOCUSED on getting my home renovation finished.  One evening last late spring while in meditation I had asked the Lord for guidance on what he wanted me to do about my current "tarrying" arrangements. I awoke with an unquenchable desire to go full speed ahead with finishing the remodeling project on the property my parents gave me.  The problem was is somehow...someway...A WHOLE LOT OF "SELF" got in there.  Getting the project done OVERTOOK my walk with the Lord.  I stopped fellowshipping all together.  I am ashamed.  Self reliance is a great way for the evil one to trip up a Christian.  Evil will  stop at nothing to devour a lone Christian. I know because I have been there.  It caught up to me a few months ago.  I snapped into reality on  what  had happened. With the Lord I have overcame this; and I fight on, yet I'm tired of fighting alone.  My soul is thirsting for fellowship.  This trial is drawing to a close.  A lesson is learned, and perhaps a lesson is taught by those reading this in a similar situation.  In my heart of hearts I know someone remembered me in prayer at Harvest Outreach,  because Harvest Outreach never left my thoughts.